Confessions

#2458 [Feedback]

My first kiss was when i was 15, but it wasn\'t even a real one. It was just lips and it was with my first boyfriend. We were both shy and didn\'t try anything else. I am now 17 and had my second kiss with a guy i don\'t even like, but it was with tongue and everything. Just the other day, i kissed another guy and it was the best kiss i have ever had. It was tongue, bite, neck, everything. Everytime i see that guy, all i think about is kissing him. But he\'s one of those guys that sweet talks with every girl, and makes every girl feel like she\'s the only one. I hate that, and im jealous that i can\'t be his one and only, like he claims...i just cant bring myself to believe it. For the past 2 days i\'ve been thinking of his lips on mine again... I just feel like im doing something wrong....

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#2457 [Feedback]

I kisssed two guys at the same party. Don\'t be so quick to judge. Neither of them knows that they both kissed me. I only liked one kiss, and i don\'t regret it. But the other one, I didn\'t like and i completely want to take it back. The kiss that i didn\'t like was by a guy who has trying to get close to me, and the problem is, is that i don\'t have any feelings for him. He\'s been wanting to hang out, and I did, like twice, but both times I felt like i was doing somehting wrong because i felt like i was pretending with him, because i guess I was. I don\'t think he realizes that I dont feel the same way with him, and I feel bad that he is getting led on. The other kiss, on the other hand, the one that i enjoyed, was with someone who I can never be with, but i guess that\'s why i enjoyed it so much. I guess the thrill of that just made it even better..

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#2454 [Feedback]

Everyone knows me, I\'m incredibly smart, and blessed with a great body. I\'m the blonde cheerleader every girl wants to be, who would never do drugs because i\'m strong enough to deal with the pain. But it means nothing to me, I feel in love with a boy who makes me feel as if the world is a better place without me. Yet i find myself more in love with him the more he pushes me away. He\'s put me through so much i\'ve cut myself, smoked weed to make all the pain go away, and given him everything I can just so he\'ll love me like he use to. I pray to God every night to give me the strength to leave him, but it never works. I will never be able to leave. If you\'re reading this and in a relationship that makes you feel like you are nothing and never were, leave. It will be hard and you will go through tremendous amounts of pain, but it will get better.

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#2404 [Feedback]	I rape people before I feel so bad. I don\'t no more. I\'ve completely change. How do I forgive myself
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#2399

I\'ve been single for almost a year, and I\'ve been sexually assaulted three times since then. I\'m extremely lonely, longing to feel a bond between a man and I, and really want to have a consensual relation with someone. I\'m not really sure what this void consists of exactly, but I feel so much pain inside of me when I think about the fact that I don\'t have someone to hold and sleep with. I feel as though it\'s horrible that I just want conditional \"love\", that I only want to know that someone finds me attractive just the way I am. I just want to be held and loved. But I am not ready to have a monogamous relationship, nor am I sure I\'m ready to meet a new person to have such sexual relations with. That\'s when this man came into the picture... we would fool around on cam, and he didn\'t tell me until later on he was in a relationship for the past five years. I am such a sack of shit for continuing this, and it\'s even worse than I want to meet him in person to have sex with him. I am the worst person ever. He\'s told me that he and his girlfriend are going through a really hard time and he just needs to get laid... I\'d love to have sex with him because I feel like I can trust him, but I can\'t help but think my judgement is impaired because the last times I thought I trusted a man, they physically forced me to have sex, and I didn\'t feel so good about it afterwards. I like this guy because I have a thing for older and smarter men... I\'m not sure if I really have feelings for him; it\'s probably just lust I feel. But, I don\'t want it to escalate into bonafide attraction. Hell, I don\'t even want to be here. But I am so strongly sexually attracted to him, I\'m having too much of a hard time restraining myself. I also have feelings for another guy. I see myself with him. But I am moving to another province in about a year, so I\'m not even sure he would want a relationship with me. I want to stop talking to this man... but the lust I have toward him is making it too difficult... I should just direct my sexual tension to someone else that doesn\'t have a girlfriend, but I\'m having a hell of a time finding even one person that I\'m not too scared to meet in person. I wish I could find solace in this circumstance..

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#2391 [Feedback]

i met this boy back in april and i fell in love with him when i first met him. then this girl came into the picture and they fell in love or so they think they are but not as much as i love him. i would give him the world if i could. they have been dating for a couple of months now but it makes me so upset that they really dont have anything in comman. but him and i have more of a connection than him and her will ever have. and now my heart is breaking even more because there getting married. plus they have had sex twice and he was a virgin now she has his virginity. i told him i really dont have feeling for him but the truth is i still do and i always will because he has my heart. i only think of him every time i listen to music and i imagine myself singing to him and my head on his shoulders. it hurts so bad. and everyone says they may not get married because they are so young but i dont know. the other thing that makes me sad though is she has never been single ever and she has had more boyfriends than any girl i know she has alot of guy friends and shes evil she wears the pants and hes always at her beck and call. they only see eachother three times a week. she wont let him have any friends that are girls unless they are ugly. and she doesnt want him being friends with me because im pretty. shes taller than him too. its so strange to look at sometimes.also when he looks at me and i look at him we have a connection i can just...... feel it and i know he does too but its like he ignores because he acts like he ignores me. i love him so much that i would stand outside in the rain for him in a hurricane. i would give him cpr to save him or kiss him with true loves kiss to bring him back to life. i sometimes find a fallen eyelash on my cheek and when i blow it to make a wish i wish for him to break up with her and be with me. its the first time in my life that i have not care whether we have two different religions. hes catholic and im jewish and i still love him. hes my true love he makes my heart skip three beats every second.

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#2387	A 19 year old can love a 38 year old. Three time zones doesn\'t matter, nor do miles. I\'d have WALKED to you, I was hell-bent. Now, I\'m just walking away.
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#2386 [Feedback]	i just ate a tuna sandwich on toasted bagel...the first meat or dairy in over a year as i am a vegan...it was really good but i totally regret it...
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#2385

Today I hit another car in a parking lot. The lot was cluttered and full, and I should not even of attempted parking there. I left a long scratch along both our cars, and drove off quickly. Truth is, I\'m a new driver. I\'ve had my full for two years, but only recently have I gotten a car. I could drive perfectly two years ago-- but now, I barely know the rules of the road and backing up and parking are major issues for me. I almost caused an accident two weeks prior to this one. I shouldn\'t be on the road. I\'m a hazard.

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#2382 [Feedback]

I hate who I am. What I have done through life has put me in a state of misery. My shallow ways and lustful thoughts have placed me into a state of depression and loneliness. I was with a girl who truly loved me at one point and I left her for a girl with a incredible body who just broke up with het boyfriend. A few weeks later I was having sex with an ex-girlfriend of mine. Then two. Then three of them. None of them knew about each other. I would have sex or at least make-out with two of them in a day. All of them pushed me for a relationship but my thought process was \"What do they want that for? I\'m in it for the sex why can\'t they be?\" Soon enough they realized what a loser I was and all moved on and fell in love. It didn\'t really bother me at first, then I started getting lonely. I started dating a girl because I knew she wouldn\'t be about sex. I fell in love with her. The whole time she was using me for what money I had and then left me for another guy. It broke my heart in two. Months later a girl from my past came into my life one day. We hooked up and made love for hours. I thought my curse was gone. Now she never talks to me and I\'m pretty sure is trying to be with my best friend. These are my sins though only a few. God has punished me for my mistakes and I\'m sure will continue to do so until I have earned God\'s forgiveness. Pray for me that I have the strength. I am running out of hope.

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