Confessions

#783 [Feedback]

father i have sined all my life i was never one to put much stock in to you but now that i am older i feel there is something misseing from my life and in order for you to come in to my life i need to get some thing off my chest i have let my addtions to adult movies hurt people i love i took money from my grandma and used it for more movies she has passed away now and i can not ask for her forgiveness i ask you for it and i have felled as a dad i have no job to take care if my wife and son i do not even have x-mess gifts for them please father forgive me and please help me get a job i am trying i just need your help your son A.R.C

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#780	I have sinned against a trust. I abused the trust of my spouse. I pray Jesus forgives me for infidelity. I repent of that sin. God wash in in the Blood of Christ and remove the stain of this sin. In Jesus Name Amen.
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#777	My heavenly Father, I come now confessing my sins to you for the wrong I've done with committing adultry with two women and taking money from certain people that I did not deserve. I am sorry and I ask for your forgiveness in the name of Jesus. Your servant, Ezra
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#748

I spend my life lying and manipulating others to prevent them from finding out the truth about me. My mother thought I had aspergers syndrome and from reading the description, I knew I didn't have it. Yet I went along to see a psychiatrist and acted like I was socially inept & got the label because having this diagnosis would be better than reveiling what I really am. Now for years I've pretended to be this socially challenged individial, had social skills training I didn't even need and have house visits from a person who claims to help people with 'disabilities' find work or study. I manipulated a company into funding 10 sessions of counselling for me and I did this because I needed to keep up my act of needing support. When the counsellor started to say I was doing great, I faked a panic attack in order to convince her that I had severe problems with anxiety and needed further treatment. I'm still getting this counselling with the companies funding. However, with pretending to have all these problems I have no time for successes. A few months ago I claimed to have been the first at the scene of a car accident and did CPR on an elderly woman who was hit. Everyone was so proud of me and my aim was achieved - not to look like a complete failure but to maintain the idea that I was still having problems. Anyway, as I write this now I notice that I start to lie and have to go back and delete those lies and replace them with the truth. My brain doesn't seem to realise it's confession time! Why all the lies about being socially inept and neurotic? A (different) psychologist 2 years before all of this started told my GP that I had 'many traits of sociopathy' and I'd rather be labelled as an anxious, socially underdeveloped person than a sociopath and be associated with people like Bundy. My confession: Lies have saved me.

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#144 [Feedback]

I have had sex before marriage. Many times. I had once sex with 5 different guys in one week. I lie. I curse. Used Gods name in vain. Im selvfish. Ive disrespected my parents. I masturbate. I think about sex often. Ive watched porn. I have taken naked pictures and made sexual videos myself. I have gotten drunk often. I think about my looks far to much. I am materalistic. Im lazy. I have prayed to Allah. I have done tarot, got my palms read, read horoscope, done ouija board. Ive listened to satanic metal and cheap crappy sex focused RnB and hip hop. The list goes on...... :(

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#88

Dearest Lord, I am thankful for all you have given me. A great wife, two great kids a house and everything. I have cheated on my wofe so many times i lost count. I have wanted to stop but can't. I know my weakness, please help me. I can not stop. I want to stop. I love my wife and family. Sex is like a fog that envelope me anytime i am alone. I want to honor you and honor my family. I need your help. I can not do this alone. Please help before its too late

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#83 [Feedback]

I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. Throughout my life, I have lived in this darkness... the beliefs that I was what "he" said I was: a slut, irrational, crazy (no one will ever beleive your word against mine)... I thought that talking about the abuse was being "honest"... but I wasn't aware of how deep honesty needed to be... until now. I am marriaed to a wonderful man that has loved me through countless trials. I have been unfaithful to him, and he has forgiven me. over the past several years... my darkness grew to the point where it literally overcame my entire being. I committed sin after sin... all "validating" that incorrect identity that I allowed "him" to label me with. Eventually- I lost everything. I walked away from my family- my husband of 20 years- my precious children- because I coul no longer deal with my guilt. I walked away under the "guise" of falling in love with another man. Finally- one day I woke up and said "Wait. This isn't me. I am lost, and I don't know how I arrived in this darkest hell." Since that time, I have slowly but surely learned what true honesty is- and how I have been walking with a shroud of lies my entire life. Many of the lies I was carrying with me weren't my own. They were the false identity my abuser created for me. Unfortunately- because I carried those lies with me- they enabled me to create my own set of lies- convinced of my unworthiness. As I have peeled away layer after layer of the darkness around me- I have learned to see myself- who I was intended to be. I have been honest about the lies that I told myself about my worthlessness. I have been honest about the lies I told about my transgressions (including infidelities). I have been reunited with my husband and family who have offered me unconditional love and grace... and I have made a promise to hold myself close to the light from now on. I have missed too many years of my life- and my family's. The only thing that still plagues me- is that there are a few infidelities I have yet to confess to my husband. The one that I just don't think I can confess is that I had sex with his brother. He is extremely close with his brother, and I am sure the knowledge of that fact would destroy their relationship forever- and would be the end of my marriage forever. His brother and I have no feelings for each other, and both hate what we did. When I came back into the family, his brother was worried that I would tell.. but I told him I hadn't. He said it went to the grave as far as he was concerned. Here I am- being welcomed back into my marriage. I feel like a brand new person- based on the self-discoveries I have made... but every night- the anxiety from guilt creeps up on me. I want so badly to move on. To continue walking in the light I have discovered... to confess and be forgiven, so I can love with out negativity.

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#82	I am sorry that my mind constantly wonders to other people. I am sorry that I cannot at times be contented with just you. I know that you are what God gave me but I am slow to learn it. Be patient with me. Beleive me and be there. I am yours and yours alone.
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#81 [Feedback]

I am a smoker. I am also a liar. My family hates smokers. To them, smokers are a bunch of degenerates who are next to nothing. I might not ever be able to confess. I can't imagine, not even for a second, my loved ones picturing me as a low life. They look up to me so much. I am suppose to be a role model for them. The woman I love, trust me blindly. I don't deserve her, and I don't deserve someone as caring as my family. I am trying to quit. But I've been trying to for a very long time. It kills me inside when I picture their smiles and hearts shattering as I confess. Whats better a lie that makes someone happy, or the truth that can hurt someone? I feel lost, but I know that I have to tell them. Its better to tell them myself then them finding out through someone else. I am about to commit a great sin. And thats breaking five hearts with just two words. "I Smoke"

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#80

Ever since I won the money I’ve just been- happy. Truly happy. It’s what I always wanted. I always wanted to have that freedom. I always wanted be affluent, rich- wealthy. And now I am. I needed to do this. I needed to move away, get out from under people and do this for myself. And I’m so glad I did. I needed my freedom. I needed my place to be truly authentic- and this is what it brought me! I needed my place to LEARN. I could never fully LEARN with those other people around me because they all so… negative! I needed to be undistracted so that I could manifest around me what I needed. And the only energy they had comprised of- pessimism. You can’t manifest anything great or good with that around you. And even if you do, I found people will ruin it for themselves because they are still negative. All I wanted was good life, a WONDERFUL life- and they didn’t want that. They didn’t think they deserved it. But just because THEY thought that way didn’t mean I had to too! I’m going to have a wonderful life simply because…I CAN!! So here I am. I always wanted to know what it was like to strike it rich. And now I did. I bought a jackpot winning lotto ticket because I wanted to. And now… I’m rich! I always wanted to be this- I always wanted to have …OPTIONS. Opportunity. CHOICE. FREEDOM! I love my money. I love having money! I love GOING places! We’re going to Jamaica. We went to Disneyland. I’m buying a house in L.A. Now I am happy!!!!!!

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