Confessions

#803 [Feedback]	I'm going to be confessing a lot on my blog..http://tudorcitygirl.blogspot.com For now it is that I am a lazy ass not looking hard for a job while collecting unemployment.
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#802 [Feedback]	I am married but still struggle with looking at porn. This is a sin. It dishonors God and is adultry according to Jesus. Father forgive me my sin and heal my perverted mind.
Total 4 votes 1 2 3

#799 [Feedback]	I have been masturbating and looking at porn wayyy too much. and now i masturbated on cam for a girl. im such a sinner....
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#798	I'm in love with my sisters 17 year old friend. I'm 29.
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#796 [Feedback]

I hate my family. From molestation to emotional and physical abuse. I am now way into my adult years and I don't think I even love my siblings anymore. I hate them all. I wrote to them and told them goodbye. They disgust me. It was like having Stockholme Syndrome all these years. The guilt, confusion, and self doubt was terrible. Staying there only to please the one I loved the most. Now that person has died from smoking and as I light a cigarrette I remember her. I miss you. You were the only one I loved. I suffered all these years so that I could be codependent on you. That's ok. You were beyond worth it. I loved you so much. I still do. R.I.P. My new life has begun. FINALLY! Now I just have to learn how to not worry about every little thing all the time. Is someone mad at me for some random thing I didn't do? Do I fit in? Am I people pleasing enough? On and on and on. It never ends in my head. I'm tired. I hate the police officer who knew and still left me there as a child and I hate the judge who didn't do his job. I hate the people who said they loved and cared about me and then walked away from me when I was struggling. I hate the word hate. I despise those worthless people who are straight to your face and ugly behind your back. The very same people who are supposed to be there, doing their jobs as counselors or advocates, and then becoming like high school girls who just gossip and revictimize. I hate feeling this alone and confused. I'm scared. I'm destroyed. I'm trauma and then some. I won't bloom where I am fricken planted as I was once told. Screw you. I'm tired of hearing about victims who went through less on CNN and hearing how they were helped. Was I not worth helping as a child? Now I feel guilty for worrying about myself more then the victims that were on CNN. I will begin anew. I have to learn to begin again. This kid and I must begin again so that this angel of a child does not end up confessing to random strangers how messed up the family was someday. I must find myself and the strength that I once had and get it together. I want to cry. I can't cry. Why can't I cry for more then ten seconds with out shutting down? I used to be able to cry. I can't cry. I see my kid looking at me when I am stressed. Wanting to play and wondering if I am alright. I look at my baby. I just want to cry. I love you kid. I love you so much. Be patient with me. I know I am a mess now. Just for now. Give me a minute. Please God please don't let me ruin my kiddo's childhood with my stress and my memories of the past. Let me be strong. I am strong. I survived. I am still here. A shell of me anyways. I guess I have a one in a million chance.. I get to reconstruct my entire self. Where do I begin? What do I like? What do I want? What do I want to become now? This new person trying to raise a precious child. Together we become a family. Just us. New friends. New town. New dreams. Where do I begin? I guess I just began right here. Thank you for letting me begin.

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#795	I am afraid of my own beliefs.
Total 3 votes 1 2 3

#789 [Feedback]

So I am 25 and I have cheated on every boyfriend I have ever had even my fiancé. Not that every time I cheated was meaningless but all the same I cheated. My ex boyfriend recently broke into my email and found out what I did (or at least found out about 3 people I cheated with). I feel stupid for leaving evidence, I feel bad for hurting him, I feel guilty for cheating with other guys but not the ones he found out about. If I had to do it over I would not change a thing regarding these relationships. One of the guys is married, well separated now and I would love nothing more then to be with him. The other two were people I met while traveling and made a huge connection with. We became so close and shared more emotionally then I ever did with my ex in 2.5 years. I just wonder if I will ever be happy and will I ever be faithful to one person. I want to be a good mother and a good wife someday but I don’t want to live a lie. I wish I could stop leading guys on I am not interested in and stop having one night stands with people I don’t care about. I just want to find myself and be happy and eventually meat someone who complements me. I use to have a meth and ecstasy problem but I have over come that. I just hope that god can give me the strength to resist my weaknesses.

Total 3 votes 1 2 3

#783 [Feedback]

father i have sined all my life i was never one to put much stock in to you but now that i am older i feel there is something misseing from my life and in order for you to come in to my life i need to get some thing off my chest i have let my addtions to adult movies hurt people i love i took money from my grandma and used it for more movies she has passed away now and i can not ask for her forgiveness i ask you for it and i have felled as a dad i have no job to take care if my wife and son i do not even have x-mess gifts for them please father forgive me and please help me get a job i am trying i just need your help your son A.R.C

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#780	I have sinned against a trust. I abused the trust of my spouse. I pray Jesus forgives me for infidelity. I repent of that sin. God wash in in the Blood of Christ and remove the stain of this sin. In Jesus Name Amen.
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#777	My heavenly Father, I come now confessing my sins to you for the wrong I've done with committing adultry with two women and taking money from certain people that I did not deserve. I am sorry and I ask for your forgiveness in the name of Jesus. Your servant, Ezra
Total 3 votes 1 2 3